What is an Indian living abroad dreaming about?
A beautiful house, (in the city or outisde doesnt matter...)
a loving and caring husband (ok fine!?)
a great career..
2 beautiful children(of course yes!)
loving friends and relatives staying around closeby etc and the list goes on like this...
and where are we in achieving that...
Do we stop with one beautiful house, I live abroad and work here, my family stays in india and all the friendsand relatives that I left behind while coming here.. I am quite sure they will just have only hazy memories about me.. while I m here, missing all of them who are busy back in india and carrying on with their lives all content and happy.. working and managaing home alone and putting up with all the chores alone, along with putting up with that discriminating looks and just thinking of the loved ones all the time if they will still remember me and will have the same fondness that they had towards me long back..
OMG, I dont have such a great happy happy life now... why all this compromse just for one beautiful house, anywyas things are as is, let me atleast work towards a more confortable life when I return ... So...let me make it two, oh wait, why not just one small piece of land, anyways i ll work after going to India ?(Ofcourse if I am not too old?.. ), why not build a house there... and all these I did..
and wen i went back, i could nt live in my home, "ALONE".. and all my worst worries had become true, my friends and relatives had almost forgotten me.. they were, well busy carriyng on with their own lives... amd my kids stayed back abroad to get on with thier lives... and there I am, couple of beautiful houses that I have rented out, I have no financial troubles, and I do live in a beautiful house, an empty house, that and just me!
What am I going to do?
Just some thoughts about the life of Indians living abroad and what might possibly happen once they, fine, me too! return back home...
Scared, dont worry, just as simple as it sounds, go ahead and make a call to you best friend and most affectionate relative that you have been thinking about for a long time! A call goes a looong way!
And of course, we still can get back home before we burn all the bridges!!!!!!!!!!!.. Any thoughts?
A beautiful house, (in the city or outisde doesnt matter...)
a loving and caring husband (ok fine!?)
a great career..
2 beautiful children(of course yes!)
loving friends and relatives staying around closeby etc and the list goes on like this...
and where are we in achieving that...
Do we stop with one beautiful house, I live abroad and work here, my family stays in india and all the friendsand relatives that I left behind while coming here.. I am quite sure they will just have only hazy memories about me.. while I m here, missing all of them who are busy back in india and carrying on with their lives all content and happy.. working and managaing home alone and putting up with all the chores alone, along with putting up with that discriminating looks and just thinking of the loved ones all the time if they will still remember me and will have the same fondness that they had towards me long back..
OMG, I dont have such a great happy happy life now... why all this compromse just for one beautiful house, anywyas things are as is, let me atleast work towards a more confortable life when I return ... So...let me make it two, oh wait, why not just one small piece of land, anyways i ll work after going to India ?(Ofcourse if I am not too old?.. ), why not build a house there... and all these I did..
and wen i went back, i could nt live in my home, "ALONE".. and all my worst worries had become true, my friends and relatives had almost forgotten me.. they were, well busy carriyng on with their own lives... amd my kids stayed back abroad to get on with thier lives... and there I am, couple of beautiful houses that I have rented out, I have no financial troubles, and I do live in a beautiful house, an empty house, that and just me!
What am I going to do?
Just some thoughts about the life of Indians living abroad and what might possibly happen once they, fine, me too! return back home...
Scared, dont worry, just as simple as it sounds, go ahead and make a call to you best friend and most affectionate relative that you have been thinking about for a long time! A call goes a looong way!
And of course, we still can get back home before we burn all the bridges!!!!!!!!!!!.. Any thoughts?
first you need to take a breath!
ReplyDeletehttp://necessaryskills.blogspot.com/2007/03/do-you-suffer-from-mind-chatter.html
and then make some space for 'present', every word in the post hangs on good times 'there in future/past' instead of 'here and now' !
Nothing wrong about having a long range thinking... but all one can have is 'now' there is no something called 'happy future!' except in ones thought :) and one can live only in 'now' !
you may like: "power of now" -Eckhart Tolle
yup, its easier to type in blog comments than to live in 'now' !
-fellow recovering thought addict :)